Confusion............

i was very optimistic that i will get admission in a very good college.... but now hopes r going down of getting a top college.. now i have to take a ok ok type college.. I know in long run this college matters very less but still it matters in short run as i want to be on my own as soon as possible.. i want to take responsibility of my parents.. i don't want my father should work more as he is now 54.... BUT what should i do... I know i m confused about colleges but these graduation exams are also going on.. because of these i lost many good colleges but these are necessary to get admission...

Only i m not in this situation.. but almost every one in my Friend circle are in same situation.... This type of situation is very worst.. where you want to achieve many things.. u have lots of dreams.. u have capabilities also.... but.. still unable to do anything...

Now i can only wish that i will able to get out of this confusion.... my exams will be over on 20Th April.. only after that I will b able to decide on many thing...

Lets see whats gonna happen.. next 1 month of my life will decide my next some years...... haa..

God help me.........

gender discrimination.....

Having president & CM a female, lucknow is still a victim of gender discrimination......A girl who wants to do higher education is not allowed to go to other city & is forced to do what parents want, even if she have great capabilities... They emotionally blackmail her so that she should not go to other place. In this way they make her a normal human being & kills a great personality.....this should b stopped. A girl should do her desired career & be on her own point if she thinks she is right.. she should fight against all odds to become great....

Loneliness.....

Why one person feels so lonely even if he/she have so my friends.....

No i m not talking about me... but about my friend...why one feels lonely... one should take his loneliness as his power to gain many things... one can utilise this loneliness in positive way... I know when things not go as u want, life looks like a empty glass with no hopes,no dreams,no friends, no road not even a single spark of hope..........

This is the most difficult situation of one's life when he looses all hopes from himself & enable to think what to do... Another situation is when one blames all to his own fate....

Today I met with persons with both the situations.....

People with these situations are difficult to handle.. I tried hard to make them understand... I motivated first one but second one was so tearful & blaming on her fate... I also no she had done nothing wrong expect one thing...... i.e. EXPECTATIONS....

Yes one should not do any kind of expectations from any one.... This "no expectation" theory of me help one in not to break down.....If u don't expect anything from anyone then how will one hurts u.. no... no one will then able to hurt you.. 

    BY not to expect from any one does not mean that one should become pessimistic.. but one should always be optimistic but not to expect from others.. one should hope for others but don't expect..

      when one hurts you, you feel lonely specially from the one whom you expected all....

You should make your loneliness your friend, partner & guiding star then this loneliness will give you strength to do great & to become great................................................

Be Cool.....

Today was my XAT exam... I was shivering ,I was not to nervous but due to cold.. winters in north India r on its peek in january... Coolest day of 2009 which started with our titters end when all my friends lost their cool.... Exam was a real shock for all.. No one had ever thought of this level of exam.. Now we all were shivering with fear that whats now going to be.. My exam was not that bad but not as i expected.. Lets see whats going to happen.....

       Vinnie on the other hand not going Hyderabaad for presentation in ICFAI, because her father is not giving her permission to go out of lucknow... Now she deciding to drop the idea of doing MBA... What a f**k it is.... The females in this part of world are yet not free to take their decision freely... I know she have capability to do big things but if this continues she will also be same like others which I dont want her to be.......

      After exam Ayu & Ali lost all hopes... the were saying that they r of no use .. they can't do anything...etc.. Me & Tani tried hard to take them to normal state.... & finaly did it...

      I often wounder why people loose their cool... Be genuine & be cool in all situations.. In anger or in fear a man doesn't able to understand things & do blunders... so be cool in everything... This "BE COOL" theory of me works everywhere... either it is in relationship or career or studies or job or business... One should not loose his/her cool.... So just BE COOL..................

Hopes.............

tomorrow is my MBA entrance exam......There is high hopes from it.... i m wishing best of luck for myself... This exam is very important to me... lets see what happens...

Today i realised how a person get confused when it comes on him about what he gives advice to others....... My friend Tani is in love with a guy with who she haven't met... only chats online made her love to him.... I wounder how is it possible yaar... How u love a person whom you haven't met.... This chat or mobile talks i don't think shows actual feelings of a person... only face to face talk can tell u what a person is....

She used to tell me that be clear with your feelings that yor are in true love or not... But when I asked her 'are u in TRUE love', she got confused & used the words like i think & may be after saying yes........

She only hopes that she will get her love in real..... life is all about hopes..... If hopes die then how one can survive.............................................................

Second day of this year was the mixture of happiness & sadness...

The day started wid laziness as i woke up at 11 today..... i know its too late but i slept at 4am... ok.. now fine with that...? I incidentaly met with my old boss who offered me to join again after my exams for CA training.... this had given me relaxation as many things will be sort out with this... this surely was the gift of new year... but wait...more happiness was awiting. My result of etrance exam for a B-school was out at 10 pm & i was shortlisted.. I m too exited for this as now I have to g to Hyderabaad on 23 feb for interview..The information was given by my very gud friend Vinnie through a SMS.. thanx dear... I m also veary happy bcz my other friends also got call.They r Divi, Riti, Any & Vinnie. But on the other hand i m upset about Ayu, Ali, Mehwer, Tany & shrads..

I m also very exsited for going too hyderabaad... cant wait for 23 feb......

Today i came across through a laughing face with tears of a unknown pain in her eyes... I know her for more then 2 years. i m just a fan of her. What a girl she is. Fighting against all odds. She is not getting support from her own family for anything.She was telling her story in a comic way, which forced us all for loud laughs, with full acting of her father,mom & bhabi. She was also laughing loud but i was not affectinated by her laugh instead of it i was seeing her eyes which have pain,sorrow & lonelyness.....

Yes this happens, may b you r smiling but an unknown pain makes u silent many a times.... this is a real pain... a pain which I can see in my friend's eyes... She just wanted to b loved, too be loved by her family, specialy her father...

Why this happens that one can not trust on his own people who r only his.. Like her father. She is a complete alrounder, a good citizen, a good friend, a good daughter too. But her father dont trust her. In her I can see a great personality, who may become greatest one day, but the only need is to trust her and give her a chance to fly.....

In last I only want to say that please give everybody a space to live freely, to talk freely & please do trust yor own people & also love them.....

Beginning of Many Things.....

1 jan 2009....
The first day of new year....
The first day of new hopes..
New dreams..,new things...
HI everyone, I m KP... im posting my first blog on this very first day of 2009...
I have thought to write blogs many a times.. but never be in it..But yesterday i have decided to start blogging, & here i m.
First time when i heard about blogs, i thought that people who r lonely or who have few or no friends do blogging.But slowly slowly i relised that these blogs r becoming our part in day to day life.These blogs r helpful in many ways.Blogging thing is too good to connect with outside world & help to explore new things and give a chance to increase our knowledge.
I m a 20 year old male from Lucknow(India).Life in this part of world is also changing following the rest world.India,a developing country wid too many dreams of every Indian,is hosting a change in lifestyle.Lucknow,a city which is trying to follow the trend of metro cities,have people with lots of hopes from own, but one can easily spot the lack of focus. India have the largest number of youngsters in the world. The whole world, including India, is hoping that India will utillise her youth battalion to grow & become a world power. But if one come and see the youths, specialy of small cities like lucknow, he can see that here is the lack of exposure.Youngsters are busy wid there small & short term pleasures that they dont have time to think about thinking big or meaningful for the country,world or humanbeing. I m not saying that this is only there mistake because this part have less exposure and results lack of focus. This makes them a common man,who lives his whole life only for him & his family.They even dont think to do anything for the country or world....
I have mentioned all this because i want to let u know about my city in which i m living,studying & trying to do SOMETHING GREAT not only for country but also for world.
This blog is a step to contact with world & try to explore things which I dont know & try to gain exposure as i m basically from very small town. I know all the problems of youth which are in small town or city.
On this first day of new year my resolution is that i will do as much as i can do for the world & I'll also try to make others focused.... This is the reason I started blogging...
May god help everyone to think for the great................